Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Love you like a Dream!

After  a thousand of discussion with Neal, finally I was there to meet his Dad,Mr.Rajiv. And after reading the book, i so want to meet the writer. Of course I aspired to be one.

In Darjeeling , it’s a remarkable attraction, and  beauty retains when you maintain.
I  have been driving almost 5 kms of striking  isolated area, when I finally came to Neal’s  place.
Neal came to receive me along with his elder sister. Mr.Rajiv was sitting in the sofa near to the  fire place. Mr.Rajiv was old and weak, he moved in his wheelchair with the help of a full time servant. Neal says his memory fades..
I saw Neal’s Mom . She was very pretty , her pony tail long enough to touch the ground. When I saw Rajiv his eyes , they reflected the same gleam I see in her’s. They must be totally in love.
As I entered Rajiv tried to greet me trying a bit to stand but he couldn’t. I was embarrassed, I greeted him back with a “ Hello Sir”
“Call me Rajiv, so does Neal and his sister. I feel young.  “ he said as he laughed.
“ The answer you seek. May be it lies with me.I will review your book” he added
I was not sure if I am going to tell him everything , I always thought it is intimidating. I could not start , wouldn’t it break his heart to re-visit the past?
“ Don’t worry, I would always like to go into the past as it my daily dose for happiness. To be there.”
Seeing him weak , I wanted to ask him about his health. This man who coached everyone at school of sportsmanship , is now old and gentle.

“Jasmin , you don’t have to say anything” Neal said.


“Yes,I know your curiosity and also everything is so much practical and faster moving in your generation.And I am proud to say Neal and his sister are good at completing other’s feeling“he said and looked at Neal’Mom,unbelievable resemblances  in their smiles. It pleased me how much he has put in for his children.
I never fell in love until I was 23 , when I was sure, found the right person as I thought to break my silence and may be a bit of me broke too..
Rajiv said “ The worth of love and unconditional love,  I understood now,on a wheel chair”
I met her when I was 23, the same town you guys went to school. she fell in love with me. She said her feeling , I said her I want to be a writer. And so shall she dreamt with me, the year when we were 23 , I never let her go. We were always together like two beans in a pod. Like we say everyone has the initial phase of knowing each other, it never passed for us. Until , I decided to leave  for my responsibility back home in Calcatta, my mother was sick. 
She was so supportive and never asked me about the future. While I left  she said “ Rajiv dear, be the writer you want to be”. Like you guys we didn’t have any means of contact, postcards were never the option as it always reached the girlfriend’s father. As the train was leaving I saw the tree just outside the station , as the tree faded,when I realised all my memories with her going to fade too. I never wanted to miss the sunset, hugs, talks,fights ,her smile. I thought I will get down at the next stop, and every station I thought so until I reached Calcatta,I never got the guts.

There he was in an isolated place where their love blossomed. I already  knew the rest of the story . It was in the book.

“Jasmin , as you think love is the same. It is a dream, if you want it to be practical ,then its not love.
I was speechless when he asked me “ any part of the book I have ever experienced”
I knew no one who sees my dreams  .What is there to hang in when its no worth. Rajiv’s love story was put into so many tests. She never left his side. I can’t imagine anyone will do for their love that way.
After our lunch, I was sitting on the sofa while everyone was taking a nap. I stared at Neal’s mom Photograph. Her long hairs, her love filled eyes. She must have been 30s when she died. Why did Rajiv never moved on? . it looked she will come back to life how thankful  she to him for keeping her love immortal in his heart and raising their kids all alone .No, I think   if she would come out of the photograph she will  fight with him for not forgetting her , for living in a very isolated place alone(so what if it was their dream place to grow old with eachother )and for not marrying someone else. But when he will say“he was happy remembering her everyday, writing her” she would calm down and hug him back.

I thank Neal for introducing me to the book and its author Mr. Rajiv.



Once bitten,twice shy!

Most of the time,  we say it’s so(o )Bollywood-ish.  When the hero wants to be a Rockstar, he got all the talent, but lacks urge (may be) ,something he was deficient in. He was asked “Dil kabhi toota hai?” ( did you ever had a broken heart?). So to platform his creativity he ends up  asking  out the prettiest girl in college , the machine that breaks heart”. 
Do we ever design and love? May be we fall in love to grasp what it is to have a broken heart, and it’s repercussion. So that we can with no trouble  to comprehend the circumstances where  he/ she expletives  in heart-ache( dil ki toh lag gayi). Like Mandaar was on his approach to commit suicide  in a tree and Ram happened to pass by. Ram had so many relationships before that it’s not even funny. All Mandaar wants to die , he has slightest attention  in his chores , Ram pulls him together ,mends him,gives him a position in his company even if he made shameless mistakes initially for all obvious reason .Exactly  how  Ram got the picture and  helped  a random stranger?And after revitalization Mandaar says “ Ram ,you are an angel”.. Will we fix someone? I will .Because that phase just pauses life entirely until someone like Ram comes in.I had few Ram around  to collect  the pieces .And  I know why?

Love is a miracle,irrespective of once ,twice or…  the magic remains the same.  Falling in love with the same person twice.  First we need to forgive them , but can we forget what we went through the phase when we were like Mandaar, What will Ram think about it? Ram put all his effort to get over. But what we do, fall in love with them all over again. Are we blessed enough to get Ram  to save us again?

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Can’t miss it!


A 5 year old boy , sitting with his Dad in a Bike , enjoying the monsoon . So Peaceful!




As a child may be till present, I get this now and then spasm when individuals are not equal. And millions of question pops into my head “ why?”. Hate the rich , love the poor. Why can’t they get some food to eat, why they die when someone else wastes.



But that 5 year old makes me think that the most important form is to stay together at peace. Enjoy the small things we have around us , when ever you are at fault ,just think of this boy , is it worth planting a bomb?is it worth hurting someone? Is it worth cutting down the trees? Is it worth to runaway than to bring in a change?

Let’s think as we do some pieces of our life off-track , we destroy the kids innocence.

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