Late Bloomer in Love!

How do i feel?


Actually I am a late bloomer in everything and for a while every now and then I liked being so.. u know ignorant and idle towards most of the things) ,now that I have fallen in love and like all of you used to say I am as well getting the sudden jerks and jumps of this feelings ( anger ,jealousy and more love )..LOL

How did all turn out??

I don’t know exactly when it really happened. But I do commit to memory, I liked him since the day I spoke to him ( the same day I saw him) so possibly could be a love at first sight. The point is we can never calculate when it  happened . Hang on!!, may be the moment I missed him when I was away from him. Or may be the day we kissed or in the beach holding hands .AHH!! impossible to wrap up. All I know is that I LOVE HIM 

Future?

I am  enjoying being in love. Having a blend of good and bad times with him , yet loving him more , and more of realizations and tears.Yah! Crazy I know (who is sensible in love anyway!) What is future exactly ? Getting married eh?. I feel like that I have known him quite a lot of years. Well certainly I don’t see a life without him.



What is his name?

And for now if I say we are not in a relationship ,will be so clear that I am a liar ( even though I am a liar big time) . Apparently, He is Mr E .

So why he will be a mystery(Mr E) for quite some time :D

All That Greed

“I”- needs more ...

 Human being    born under any sunsign  or moonsign , no matter what were the position of the stars during their birth ,have a innate habit of drooling over others’ possessions...

A person who walks by foot   looks upon a person on a bicycle, the bicycle person looks upon a motorbike and then it’s a four wheeler..and it’s not the end  of their collection , different latest vintage model and all that... we count on  and  on.

( which is obviously  impossible to follow)-what if people  could  satisfy themselves  and find peace with what they have?? Why can’t “greed” end with  “need” of just  ROTI , KAPPDA and MAKKAN.. ??

 Oh Crap!!  .. My neighbour got a brand new BMW *heart-ache*

hah!! Human nature!!

The Mary Ann mutiny!!

Mary Ann married in her teen and summers of 1984
She was quiet but knew happiness on her way for sure
She cooked food,washed clothes and cleaned the floor
Her husband worked out,she stayed behind the closed door

Mary Ann dreamed to become a singer, a big star
She realized that wishes are all scars, impossibly far
Just then she heard someone playing music of a guitar
She started to sing to the music,like a perfect pair.

Mary Ann thereof failed in marriage , fell in love
It was sinful but thoughts were made in heaven above
Her husband never cared what she was sad of?
Piece of music gave her the courage,she was deprived of.

Mary Ann and her unaccepeted music wisdom was caught
Her husband treated her like an object,he bought
She was dejected ,she fancied a divorce in the court
She could not settle on as she was all alone,no support

Mary Ann was seized and starved inside some locked way
She rebelled but was left cheerless and the end of each day
In her chained remains,her dreams set in a motion to decay
So she decides to meet her maker,and ask Him why?

BEING MARRIED!!

I have been with him since five years, never saw him numb this way. His early arrival from office reflected all feelings , negative vibes jammed his throat and he cried,cried like a kid revolting against his parents verdict. I was amazed but without wasting a second to think why he didn’t place a soft kiss on my forehead, i hugged him instead, I knew something was wrong and this is my turn to take him away from his grief.

‘its ok,honey’ i said without knowing the reason why he was leaning against me and crying his eyes out.

Numerous questions cracked my head . did he cheat on me?? Has he fallen in love with someone else?? i struggled to let go his negative vibes upon me,..he hid his face fixed against me like a place where he was safe, and man enough to let his tears drain. ‘calm down baby’

He raised his head looked into my eyes , watching his tears made me feel unprotected , I never saw him this weak . ‘ i’m fired, i dont have a job anymore’ .. he looked at me thinking that a worst news has been delivered. Instead a sigh of relif that he still loves me.

‘ its ok ‘ i gently brushed off his hair from his forehead, but the matter of fact they fell upon the same place. ‘ tell me wat happened, i’m with you ,we will work it all out. I promise ‘

He turned away his face , as he was about to explain , i put my hand around his shoulder and made it a point it should be a conversation, i can’t see him break down.

And i Know him since the day he has been working ,going over and over the same thing ,the same job everyday made him misplace his years anger. His childhood best friend speaks of him as the wiz kid who has all the ways , the effective and short cut ways to success. how he topped his school,his college, but the one thing that drove him indifferent was being caught in a wrong job.

In a place where he could never revolutionize his thoughts. He hated acting the same everday . and his project manager called upon him to load more and more work that took his life and time with me which he said was the only thing he wanted as a constant.

That night i cooked him dinner ,he ate it silently even though our appetite crashed with the dejection that prevailed him ,no it prevailed us. And all night he gazed out at the stars , and I thought of leaving him alone but it was other way around i found myself so lonly , i could not see him this way , i hugged him and looked at the sky, the moon was glazing like the same night of our life when we were on the beach and promised eachother to stay together in sickness and in health.

And a reason agreeable enough for my smile ,’I LOVE HIM’.

So Far!! So Good!!

well !!well !! it's been a while i havn't blogged..( big deal!! as if you were waiting??!!:p)... anyway!! before the blogger police throw me out of here...i gotta write someethinnn..:D..may be a short update:D
its been since september last year,I was home for almost four months made me nauseate to death...but then thanks to my company to send me a call letter :) but again the ironic icing on the cake was my posting in Chennai..the place may not be that bad ..but more cause i was waiting for a 'change'... a Massive CHANGE..

flight of fancy!!

A tight girp on the handle,
A tight base on the paddle

Salim compelled his tri cycle to move..
The passenger was content to heed his song.

“ sir, the road connects you and your love
And when you will hug her, you will smile,
Just like the time you saw her walk down the aisle,..”

The traveler in his overjoyed mood
Said Salim “you are a fine songster, dude”

He next asked to apply for indian idol
Salim knew ,high hope for a poor man is suicidal

But soon they talked about cat ,rat and mice
to Natter with customers always made him feel nice.

Some they talk, some are silent, and some rude,
But they forever said “you are a fine songster ,dude”

concluding the praises and gathering up courage
He set out and sang in indian idol auditions’ stage

Anu mallik and farah khan gave him a standing ovation
Ultimately, nation voted him the idol, celebration

But Salim was no where to be found
Citizens were waiting  to see him, crowned

And now why would I write further more
Better you find the skeptisim of the poem to core…

Blinded!!

An angel with fangs, serpent in my closet
Melodic his voice,soothing his words
Embraced with a smile ,crooked
Under a spell ,perplexed by charm.

Sweet- temper, that was flaunted
Hypnotized by that stare..
Two of a kind, join up, pair off…
A cryptic teen, I got fixed to..

The ugly plane, out of sight
That tall tale when stripped,
Horrifically cheerless, churned my faith
Yet, hell its no easy effort to escape…