Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Love you like a Dream!

After  a thousand of discussion with Neal, finally I was there to meet his Dad,Mr.Rajiv. And after reading the book, i so want to meet the writer. Of course I aspired to be one.

In Darjeeling , it’s a remarkable attraction, and  beauty retains when you maintain.
I  have been driving almost 5 kms of striking  isolated area, when I finally came to Neal’s  place.
Neal came to receive me along with his elder sister. Mr.Rajiv was sitting in the sofa near to the  fire place. Mr.Rajiv was old and weak, he moved in his wheelchair with the help of a full time servant. Neal says his memory fades..
I saw Neal’s Mom . She was very pretty , her pony tail long enough to touch the ground. When I saw Rajiv his eyes , they reflected the same gleam I see in her’s. They must be totally in love.
As I entered Rajiv tried to greet me trying a bit to stand but he couldn’t. I was embarrassed, I greeted him back with a “ Hello Sir”
“Call me Rajiv, so does Neal and his sister. I feel young.  “ he said as he laughed.
“ The answer you seek. May be it lies with me.I will review your book” he added
I was not sure if I am going to tell him everything , I always thought it is intimidating. I could not start , wouldn’t it break his heart to re-visit the past?
“ Don’t worry, I would always like to go into the past as it my daily dose for happiness. To be there.”
Seeing him weak , I wanted to ask him about his health. This man who coached everyone at school of sportsmanship , is now old and gentle.

“Jasmin , you don’t have to say anything” Neal said.


“Yes,I know your curiosity and also everything is so much practical and faster moving in your generation.And I am proud to say Neal and his sister are good at completing other’s feeling“he said and looked at Neal’Mom,unbelievable resemblances  in their smiles. It pleased me how much he has put in for his children.
I never fell in love until I was 23 , when I was sure, found the right person as I thought to break my silence and may be a bit of me broke too..
Rajiv said “ The worth of love and unconditional love,  I understood now,on a wheel chair”
I met her when I was 23, the same town you guys went to school. she fell in love with me. She said her feeling , I said her I want to be a writer. And so shall she dreamt with me, the year when we were 23 , I never let her go. We were always together like two beans in a pod. Like we say everyone has the initial phase of knowing each other, it never passed for us. Until , I decided to leave  for my responsibility back home in Calcatta, my mother was sick. 
She was so supportive and never asked me about the future. While I left  she said “ Rajiv dear, be the writer you want to be”. Like you guys we didn’t have any means of contact, postcards were never the option as it always reached the girlfriend’s father. As the train was leaving I saw the tree just outside the station , as the tree faded,when I realised all my memories with her going to fade too. I never wanted to miss the sunset, hugs, talks,fights ,her smile. I thought I will get down at the next stop, and every station I thought so until I reached Calcatta,I never got the guts.

There he was in an isolated place where their love blossomed. I already  knew the rest of the story . It was in the book.

“Jasmin , as you think love is the same. It is a dream, if you want it to be practical ,then its not love.
I was speechless when he asked me “ any part of the book I have ever experienced”
I knew no one who sees my dreams  .What is there to hang in when its no worth. Rajiv’s love story was put into so many tests. She never left his side. I can’t imagine anyone will do for their love that way.
After our lunch, I was sitting on the sofa while everyone was taking a nap. I stared at Neal’s mom Photograph. Her long hairs, her love filled eyes. She must have been 30s when she died. Why did Rajiv never moved on? . it looked she will come back to life how thankful  she to him for keeping her love immortal in his heart and raising their kids all alone .No, I think   if she would come out of the photograph she will  fight with him for not forgetting her , for living in a very isolated place alone(so what if it was their dream place to grow old with eachother )and for not marrying someone else. But when he will say“he was happy remembering her everyday, writing her” she would calm down and hug him back.

I thank Neal for introducing me to the book and its author Mr. Rajiv.



Once bitten,twice shy!

Most of the time,  we say it’s so(o )Bollywood-ish.  When the hero wants to be a Rockstar, he got all the talent, but lacks urge (may be) ,something he was deficient in. He was asked “Dil kabhi toota hai?” ( did you ever had a broken heart?). So to platform his creativity he ends up  asking  out the prettiest girl in college , the machine that breaks heart”. 
Do we ever design and love? May be we fall in love to grasp what it is to have a broken heart, and it’s repercussion. So that we can with no trouble  to comprehend the circumstances where  he/ she expletives  in heart-ache( dil ki toh lag gayi). Like Mandaar was on his approach to commit suicide  in a tree and Ram happened to pass by. Ram had so many relationships before that it’s not even funny. All Mandaar wants to die , he has slightest attention  in his chores , Ram pulls him together ,mends him,gives him a position in his company even if he made shameless mistakes initially for all obvious reason .Exactly  how  Ram got the picture and  helped  a random stranger?And after revitalization Mandaar says “ Ram ,you are an angel”.. Will we fix someone? I will .Because that phase just pauses life entirely until someone like Ram comes in.I had few Ram around  to collect  the pieces .And  I know why?

Love is a miracle,irrespective of once ,twice or…  the magic remains the same.  Falling in love with the same person twice.  First we need to forgive them , but can we forget what we went through the phase when we were like Mandaar, What will Ram think about it? Ram put all his effort to get over. But what we do, fall in love with them all over again. Are we blessed enough to get Ram  to save us again?

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Can’t miss it!


A 5 year old boy , sitting with his Dad in a Bike , enjoying the monsoon . So Peaceful!




As a child may be till present, I get this now and then spasm when individuals are not equal. And millions of question pops into my head “ why?”. Hate the rich , love the poor. Why can’t they get some food to eat, why they die when someone else wastes.



But that 5 year old makes me think that the most important form is to stay together at peace. Enjoy the small things we have around us , when ever you are at fault ,just think of this boy , is it worth planting a bomb?is it worth hurting someone? Is it worth cutting down the trees? Is it worth to runaway than to bring in a change?

Let’s think as we do some pieces of our life off-track , we destroy the kids innocence.

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Thursday, June 13, 2013

It's Tomorrow Again!

The day has begun,from the bed ,you wake up
Get ready put up your fake smile and make up
Tick-tock ,you run with the time, late to job
Everyone is insane ,if you are Jacob or Bob

To be rich ,to be good-looking and shinning
Your day is gone by dreaming and fate designing
You ignore the girl,with you beautifully matching
You need money, brain and hard work combining

You ,by all means again look for an easy way
with something more richer you would stay
And she missed ,she cried as she felt you betray
In love with you, a lot of things she had to pay

Easy way you loose, and you lost your chance
You search for her but not even a little glance
She is happy obviously makes her beauty enhance
She got everything for someone,dance and Romance!

You miss the love too,you want her back,
Already made peace with things she lack,
You want to confess, by not keeping her in dark.
You sincerely want to seal the heart that has a crack

(to be cont…)



Monday, June 10, 2013

10 things for you!

Yes, You are not here , away helping a few, serving your purpose of existence. That’s what I like about. But even if you stop serving the world, I will still adore you. I care the thought you have now and I will cherish it a life time.

Yes,I miss you. You once helped me too. When I put myself in a shell. You dragged me into the rain, held my hand. made me feel my soul, miracles of life, the little drops of rain and my smile, I fell in love with me all over again.

So,today I dedicate this day unbroken to you and your favorites


1.walked down  the streets of koregoan , the drizzling rain remind me of you.



2. reached sweet chariot ,found your favorite Kiwi Cake. Had a bite. It never tasted so(o) good.



3. Went for bowling in your preferred alley. I had two strikes. Wish you were there too



4. Bought a rimless glasses, looked myself at the mirror. The frame were just like yours.



5. On my way home, dropped by  at your place, flowers for your favorite lady, your MOM



6. Your liftman, to whom you always lend your smile. When he smiled at me. I remembered you and your smile.



7. Met Marco at my building. I am sure he missed you too . I instructed him to sit , but the way he jumps at you. He did the same. Yes, you also taught me to be loving towards Dogs. They are just kids looking for attention.



8. Listened to your favorite song “stairway to heaven”. EPIC!



9. Went to CCD, read “Cnnecting Dots” both for you and me. Must say you are a think tank.



10.I am sure I must have seen you in my dreams. And wished it to be true ..



Lots of Love,

Jasmin

Friday, April 12, 2013

One Saturday Night!


Xin, she is the biggest a**hole ,I can call my friend. I regret it,

Given a choice , I would delete her from my life’s book. But the fact is we don’t let go seven years of friendship for just a chewing gum episode.

Oh yes! That incident shook everyone, Perhaps they thought Xin is suppose to die.

Saturday it was , How we all wanted to go GOA but ended up in radio shack. A shack minus the beach wear or the sight of beach in that case :P .Xin,tall, chineese ,obviously eyes not that defined, Or more than that she is blind( Ahh!! I hate her as I am writing this Post).


First Stop at Stu ‘s Place , It was his birthday and he had no money to treat us. SO why it was house Party and then going to a not so happening Place called some shack it seemed.

Point to be noted not all firangi settled in India are rich. And not all in Pune come for Osho but all of them I know work dedicate for reputed NGOs.

Lets talk about Xin here, She got this huge role to play in the upcoming paragraph.


Perhaps the whole thing was destined to happen, I mean that day we decided to go in a car,for just a 100m destination. And it was all random, Xin was the choosen one to sit beside me And Amit was the Happy one to offer HAPPY Dent to everyone.Xin had three of those together (can you imagine the only one who took that bl**dy chewing gum) , All so excited , who cared where Xin threw her Half chewed gum.

My life!!My love , We jumped and hoped!!



Came home , crashed on my bed. Should have checked me in the mirror.. but hey somethings are destined to happen.. So Morning I saw Xin staring at me , that look when she is sh*t sorry about something.. May be she broke good stuff of mine.

“ XIN MORNING” I said …

“Sorry Sorry I think its me, The other night my chewing gum sticked to your hair “ She was sorry may be. I Jumped out of the bed all freaked out. Hate her till now for doing that..

HERE IS ME with all the short hair ,quite manageable now… But I must learn to like them and also XIN may be ..X0X0

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Bringing me Peace

Previously,I cursed him to die,
Sorry Eyes all cried out, dry,
Cut my feathers,I couldn’t fly
But still at peace,ask me how?

You must have felt it a bit
Falling in a well dug pit,
An actor following the same skit
Will tell you what changed my mind

I was on my way to office
With my best friend,munching toffees
I told him to look both the sides
There are rules in the road to abide

I heard him scream and cry
Saw blood oozing out his head and eye
All the spectators were standing by
Next was in hospital,with all the life supply

He looked at me , took his last breath
His family affected by his death,
Crying near him,was his girlfriend,Beth
Condolence, Tears all seemed a myth

So there I forgave my ex-love,
The pain he gave me, a lot of
That day I was at peace, a complete stop
Life is nothing but Bad memories to crop!